A nice weekend!

This has been a really nice weekend I'm pretty disappointed that it's already Sunday! Back to work tomorrow.. blah! I feel like I came into this weekend with a lot to do, and though I still have quite a bit (ok a huge amount) of things to finish I've had one of the best weekends that I've had in a long time. Kevin and I have spent a lot of time together & I actually got some exercise in~ which makes me feel really good!

First I have to be excited~ Kevin was offered a job (YEA!) that I think he is planning on accepting. He'll be working for an Expo Design Center selling bathroom/bathroom stuff. The pay is actually a dollar more to start than what I make now and after 90 days he would get a .50 raise. They offer benefits and 401K which he really needs also, not to mention vacation days (accrued) and sick days. The pay would be about equal with what he's been bringing home from unemployment except he'd be paying taxes now rather than later so it'll be a little less take home. What does suck is that since it's a retail/sales position he'd be working Monday through Sunday basically (a 5 day work week) with who knows what days off and a rotating schedule. My point was that it's ok since he won't be there forever. He's in school right now & should be graduating in October 2007. We just need him to get something that he can make do with for now. Honestly it will be very tight, especially once the baby comes, but it's a fair offer for the type of job. Plus I didn't want him to find a job in construction or something where he'd have no real vacation days or sick days like most of the other jobs he's had. I was excited about this. He won't have to feel terrible about leaving to go to a "real" job when he gets his degree since he won't have a ton of responsibility on him like if he was the only installer or something at a construction company. So that is my stance on the matter. He left a message for the manager and she is going to call him back. He is going to possibly ask to start off .50 higher to begin with since that would help a lot, but if not he's still going to try it out. Yea!

Back to my weekend :)~ Friday night Kev and I went out for our usual cheap Friday night out~ dinner at Ruby Tuesday's and the movie The Shaggy Dog with Tim Allen. The dinner actually sucked so that was pretty disappointing. We used to go to a Tuesday's near our old house & it was great, but this one not so much. It took forever for our food to come & when it did it was cold and not so tasty. My mashed potatoes were so cold they were starting to get a skin & Kevin got the wrong dinner, but we didn't realize it right away. He ordered chicken parm & they brought him some chicken alfredo w/broccoli.... um, he doesn't like broccoli. He was picking through it & eating the chicken. He didn't even eat 1/2 of it and neither did I. Our waitress asked him if it was bad & he told her it wasn't the right thing but he didn't realize it at first (we just thought he'd read the wrong thing off the menu or something). We were really nice about it & she said she could probably get us a free dessert but we weren't really in the mood. She said she'd see what she could do. She brought the check back in two seconds, no adjustments or anything! She was pretty inattentive and we were just unhappy with that. We just paid and left kinda disappointed. It wasn't a big deal, just the last time we go there!

So we headed off to the movie theater in our town that we'd never tried out. I wanted to see The Shaggy Dog~ yes I know it's a Disney movie but it looked cute! The theater was soooo clean & sooo nice! There was hardly anyone in the theater with us but a few families and a few other couples. It was funny; corny at times, but silly. I like seeing movies like that sometimes. It's nice to not hear curses, or see death, or blood, or gore! Just a good ol' fashion barking monkey and man turning into a dog lol.

Yesterday was kind of a crummy weather day. It was warm (around 50ish) but cloudy & drizzly. We slept in past 10:00 for the first time in a LONG time which was great. It's nice to snuggle up under the covers and watch some tv. When we finally got up I did some work on the blanket I am crocheting for the baby. I had been doing one in green and white before I found out our baby is a girl. I decided I'd rather do one in purple and pink so I broke out the yarn and started crocheting while Kevin & I watched some movies we had TiVo'd while we were out on Friday (Trading Spouses, Conviction, & Deal or No Deal). It was a nice morning. I followed it up with some homework (blah) and Kevin went out to get the molding for our bedroom (pictures will be posted soon!). I realized my dog, Roxie, was starving for attention so I decided to take my dogs for a walk outside~ all 3 of them~ by myself. Since we have a yard I normally don't do actual walks with them, we just take them out & play there. I decided they (& I) could use a little exercise so I took them down past another house that we were thisclose to buying before we got this *much better* house & we followed a trail that lead down along Millstone River. We followed the trail a little while and it was really quiet. The river was slow and it was pretty peaceful. I enjoyed it a lot & the dogs were loving it! They were really hard to hold on the leashes (especially Roxie & Jewel who were pulling in two different directions at once!) and I was a little tired and didn't want to over do it, so we headed back. It ended up being only a 1/2 hour 40 minute walk but it was fun and they dogs all enjoyed it. Kev & I spent the rest of the day hanging out, doing homework, and watching tv. Of course I killed my walk by ordering in pizza lol but oh well!

Today was a really nice day~ we went to IHOP for the first time since we moved. We actually found one not far from our house & had a nice breakfast before the rush hit! We took a trip down the highway after trying to find JCPennys so we could take a look at the cribs but couldn't find it. Before I knew it we were taking a road trip and kept going until we ended up in Princeton. I've lived in NJ my entire life but never been there before. It was BEAUTIFUL. We drove around the town and past the university. I wish I had my camera because it was really nice and so historic! I love looking at the old houses and churches and buildings. It was almost like going back in time and I could imagine women in their colonial dresses and horse drawn carriages trotting through the streets. I am hoping to go back again soon. Surprisingly it was only a half hour or so from our house so I'm sure we will be planning a day trip for a visit.

Once we got back we both took all of our dogs out for a walk down the same path and Kevin got to explore with us. We went down further & along the river this time. Roxie was crazy! She wanted to go swimming! I've never seen her like that before but she was sniffing all along the shore and the water and when we got down to where the rivers merged she actually jumped in (she was still on the leash) & swam around! I was dying I was laughing so hard. It was great. I wanted to throw a stick in but Kevin was afraid it was too cold and she might have trouble swimming back and neither of us wanted to have to jump in after her. She swallowed a lot of water and did a lot of coughing when she came out but she loved it and wanted back in lol. For her first time in she did a good job swimming & I can't wait until it's warmer and we can take her out & let her actually go in. It's gonna be fun! My mom's dog, Marty (also a jack russell), LOVES to swim. Maybe we'll have to have him over one day & he & Roxie can swim together. It was great though. We walked back up & I'm pretty tired now.

So here I am. Home at 1:30 in the afternoon with lots of homework to do. I better get to it. Hope everyone's having a good weekend!

~Kristina

What a wacky few days LOL

OMG I'm having some interesting last few days! Since I haven't posted in a few days I'll go back to Wednesday when I had my Technology & the Young Child class. I actually have to leave work to go there since it goes from 11 am to 1ish. Afterwards I go back to work & finish my day. Well I went to class as usual Wednesday & had to get there early in order to actually find parking. I found a spot (way in the back of the campus) where there were only a few cars parked & realized I still had 45 minutes before my class started. It was beautiful outside & my car was warm from the sun. I was listening to my xm radio that Kevin got me for Christmas this year & just relaxing. I figured I'd wait until about quarter of 11 to start walking up since there was a class in that room & I couldn't get in early. Next thing I know I look over at the clock and it says 11:18! I am so disoriented & stare for a minute & than I'm like, wait a minute! I pulled out my cell phone & it also said 11:18. OMG! I FELL ASLEEP!! I quick grabbed all my stuff & looked around where I parked & it was packed- not a single empty spot! Needless to say I hauled ass to class & by the time I walked in I was 25 minutes late & had missed almost the ENTIRE lecture which was actually on Microsoft Logo which is a program I know NOTHING about!!! I can't get over it. Kevin is STILL teasing me about it LOL.

Yesterday was awesome b/c I actually saw my belly move for the first time!! I had gotten some advice from BOTB to put a remote control on my belly to see it move when my baby kicks. I had questioned when others saw their bellies move or when their DH's felt the baby b/c Kevin said he still hasn't felt anything yet and I'm 22 weeks 3 days preggo already (OMG time flies!). I wanted to see if I could see anything before I had Kevin come over & stare at my belly and see absolute nothing so last night while Kev was at class I laid in bed and watched some TV & put the remote on my fat belly. Before I knew it I could feel the baby moving & the remote started to wiggle! Than when she kicked the remote jumped a bit! It was so cool! So I took the remote off when I felt her really rolling around in there (I swear she must've been swimming LAPS LOL) and I could actually see my belly wobble and swish back and forth a bit where she was moving!!!! I must've had the biggest dopiest smile on my face but it was awesome. As soon as he called I told him to hurry up because he had to see this. When he came home he laid next to me and at first had a little trouble telling if he was seeing the remote move from my breathing, the dogs on the bed, or the baby. We kicked the dogs down & he actually saw it and got all excited. It was a very cool night. Tonight we are going to do it again a little earlier because she seems to get really active & stuff around 9:30-10ish and he didn't see until after 10:30. We'll keep our fingers crossed that maybe he'll actually feel her tonight!

Today has been a long day but it's FRIDAY! I'm looking forward to a couple days where I can sleep in a bit and spend some time with Kevin. I can't believe what happened to me this afternoon though- it was pretty funny from everyone else's' stand point, but I'm pretty embarrassed.... So I tend to flop into my work chair & sit on my leg. I guess I hit the chair the wrong way & I hear this loud CRACK! OMG I actually broke my work chair! It was so embarrassing. Everyone heard & I looked like an ass. I had to roll it away & get another one. Duh! Ok, I know I've put on weight (actually 18 lbs so far!) and I was never a little girl but this was pretty bad. I really was embarrassed. I laughed it off but omg I can't wait to leave lol.

So this weekend I have a bunch of projects to do but Kev & I are thinking of going out for a movie & seeing Tim Allen's movie the Shaggy Dog. I'm definitely a comedy kinda person & that looks cute. We'll see what happens.. you know, if I don't fall asleep in the car before the movie starts! LOL Hope you have a good weekend & I'll post later :)

~Kristina

Ok, so I'm avoiding my homework- at least I can admit it! I saw this cute survey on Melissa's Cat's webpage & thought I could kill some time :-P

ABC Survey
A is for age: 24
B is for booze of choice: Vodka...or Long Island Iced Tea which is a little bit of everything.... I was never much of a drinker but now that I can't do it I MISS IT LOL
C is for career: medical billing rep for cardiologist practice
D is for your Dad's name: Frank
E is for essential items to bring to a party: my mom's nachos are yummy
F is for favorite song at the moment: Count on Me by Default (I like the message)
G is for favorite game: The Sims Online or The Sims 2
H is for hometown: Howell, NJ
I is for instruments you play: flute, piccolo, contra-alto clarient, tenor sax, very little piano
J is for jam or jelly you like: strawberry
K is for kids: gimme abouta 3 1/2 months :)
L is for living arrangements: home owner!
M is for Mom's name: Kelly
N is for name of your crush: my husband Kevin!
O is for overnight hospital stays: never
P is for phobias: being alone
Q is for quotes you like: "We are the music makers, we are the dreamers of dreams." Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: current- 8 years this June 22 (but 1st wedding anniversary this June 17!)
S is for soda preference: mmm..root beer.. but I could go for some diet Mountain Dew right now..
T is for tasty desserts: cheese cake
U is for underwear: always ;)
V is for vegetables you love: broccoli, yellow squash, zucchini, mushrooms
W is for weekend plans: homework, work on the nursery, homework, spend time with Kevin, homework :)
X is for x-rays you've had: plenty, I'm a clutz: my ankle (sprained a few times), wrist (broke the right on 2xs!), cheek (actually broke it!), back (from the chiropractor) & maybe others I'm forgetting
Y is for year you graduated from high school: 2000
Z is for zodiac sign: libra

Sigh.... that didn't take long enough LOL~ back to homework!

I'm back & feeling like **me** again!

I'm feeling MUCH better today than I was when I posted last. First let me thank all you guys who read &/or responded to my vent the other day(s) & are actually back again! It's not always the most fun to sit & read through such rants & raves but I appreciate that I get the feed back & support from such cool people!

Just to follow up on what happened with the whole "Tammy situation," I went back to work yesterday it felt like I could've cut the tension with a knife. No one really talked in our entire office & everyone was pretty miserable. Our general manager Steve came in & he called me in. I really was afraid I was going to be fired. He has always been good to me & I know he likes me, but this whole thing went way beyond what it should've. He told me that I am on "warning" & if anything like that happens again I will be fired. Ok. That is ok because I know it won't. He said he was "soft stepping" the issue with me because he knows I'm pg & he knows I did not instigate the argument. He did tell me he would not be "soft stepping" as much with Tammy either (GOOD!). He also said he heard that Kevin lost his job and asked how I was handling it and apologized for me being in the situation. He seemed sincerely concerned. We discussed when I'd be going out on maternity leave & I told him I planned on going 4 weeks before my due date & staying 6 weeks after the baby comes (longer if I have a c-section) since that is what the state disability covers. He said that was fine but he was betting that I'd have a note about 2 weeks before that from my doctor saying I couldn't work (don't ask me why.. I didn't really get that). Before he was done I asked him the question of insurance (which has been weighing on my mind). As it is, I am fortunate to not have to pay anything for my insurance; my employer pays for me in full for my medical and dental (but Kevin is not covered~ he'd be $430/month extra!). I wanted to know if I would have to pay while I was out on disability or how it would work since it was not in the employee handbook. He gave me a 1/2 smile & kinda told me not to worry about it, he would figure something out & that is decided on a case-by-case basis. It really sounded to me as though I won't have to pay! That would really be amazing to me because I don't know how I'm going to afford it. Especially since I'm going to have to add the baby to the plan too. I think I'm just going to have to wait until it gets a little closer to see.

Anyway, back on topic... we had a brief meeting w/all of our billing department & Steve after he talked to Tammy & we were both told to apologize to everyone. I felt terrible about what had happened & I expressed that.. Tammy just said, "I apologize to everyone." Ok, really heart felt. After that it felt a little lighter in the room & I decided last night that I would bring in bagels & cream cheese as a sort of 'peace offering' today. When I walked in this morning Tammy was CRYING to the other girls in the office (P, C, & E). C told me that she was upset about what had happened with Steve the day before & she was afraid to lose her job. This afternoon I spoke to E & she said that she thinks the real reason that Tammy was crying was because everyone knows that she was wrong in treating me the way she did and she was feeling rejected. She also said that she had thought Tammy learned her lesson after talking to Steve but has decided she hasn't. She said nothing gets through to her. Oh well. A leopard doesn't change her spots! So that's over (thank god!).

I better get going. I have to do a lot of homework tonight. Will this semester ever end??

7 weeks until the semester is OVER!

~Kristina

Same old bullsh*t, different day

I went into work this morning & within the first 5 minutes I was signed on AIM I received an instant message from Tammy (co worker from hell). After an argument (through IMs) we verbally yelled at each other, I met with my manager, than I left. I am now home for the day. This is what transpired (WARNING: EXTREMELY BAD LANGUAGE... please don't think badly of me.. I was SO angry):

THE BITCH (8:51:44 AM): i have done a lot of thinking over the week-end and i am sorry for all the shit you are going through, but if u dont want me to know stuff then please do not come over here and talk to E when i am sitting here, if it has come to this then so be it
ME (8:51:57 AM): fine
so at this point I thought for a few minutes & realized that she made it sound like it was my fault that she said stuff to me that was inappropriate & I did not feel that way. It was wrong for her to comment on things like that so I came back with...
ME (8:58:33 AM): and btw, i couldnt care less if you knew certain things. i dont talk to everyone here about everything in my life- there are things i keep private. & i do not talk to E (a woman at work that I talk to; sits next to tammy) when you are there, if you havent noticed (and i'm sure you listen) we talk about the house or the pregnancy. not kevin. so i think it is RUDE of you to eavesdrop & feel the urge to open your big mouth & make comments to me about things that are of no concern to you. you are the one who ruined this friendship, not me- it is your fault i dont talk to you anymore, not mine.
THE BITCH (8:59:59 AM): get the hell out of here, do you think we all need to listen to your life and kevins dont go there this coming from a woman who bad mouthed her husband to everyone in the office regardless of who they were & now is back with him & bought a new house that ridiculously over priced at $377,000 & has no heat in the upstairs & floods in the basement.
ME (9:00:21 AM): and right tammy- we all wanna hear about your fucked up marriage or curtains & house all the fucking time? ok, low blow but she never shuts up about her personal garbage
ME (9:00:37 AM): i fucking dropped it when i wrote you last week. drop it
ME (9:00:57 AM): who the fuck are you to tell me to not go there?
THE BITCH (9:01:09 AM): no we dont and u drop it who the fuck are u ok, repeating what I said
ME (9:02:05 AM): fuck u tammy. get over yourself. you make yourself the joke. you are the one who acts stupid. you are ridiculous. get over yourself.
THE BITCH (9:02:37 AM): you are the child not me get over yourself sounds a lot like, "i know you are but what am i?"

The comment calling me a child was the last straw. I've really had it. I don't know what to do. This is a 42 year old woman who acts like a 10 year old child. She airs her dirty laundry to ever person in our office~ regardless of who they are. I actually helped get her a job at this company about 2 years ago & this is how I get repaid. I really feel like I can't handle it anymore. I was so upset with the way she sent this stuff to me that I just kind of went off. So I am home & just IM my boss at work (btw she is only 28) & she said she talked to her boss & he is coming in tomorrow (he's an accountant so we rarely see him during tax time) & he will be calling us in to talk to him. I know that she won't be fired~ even though I really have to admit that I wish she would be. I know in the end I look bad too which makes me feel worse. I didn't do anything to deserve this. I'm just trying to get by. It isn't fair. I don't know how I am going to go into work tomorrow & do my job knowing that everyone in my office knows what happened today (I'm sure Tammy will tell everyone if they don't already know). I've been at my job for 3 years this August & I feel like I'm being pushed out. I wish I could just call up & quit & go pick up my pictures & stuff & leave.. forever.. because I don't want to do this anymore!

Alright, I'm sorry this was such a vent. It's 11:45 in the morning & I want my day to be over with already. Maybe later I'll post about my weekend which actually was good!

~Kristina

Ok, 3 posts in one day.. I am sooo damn bored!

Ok, I read this on Summer's blog & that I am actually going to fill one of these out. I normally don't do these either..

10 YEARS AGO -->
How old were you?: 14
What Grade were you in?: 9th/Freshman
Where did you go to school: Howell High
Where did you work?: Golds Gym in child care & baby sitting.
Where did you hang out?: at friends or the mall on occassion
What was your hair style?: sholder length bob
Did you wear braces?: No
Did you wear glasses?: Yes
Who was your best friend?: Amy
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?: Beazer, Zach, Mark (not at once )
Who was your celebrity crush?: too long ago! I don't remember!
Who was your regular-person crush?: oh boy lol: Mike, Mark, Zach
How many piercings did you have? just my ears (1 in each than)
How many tattoos did you have? none~ I was little
What was your favorite band?: hmmm... don't remember
What was your biggest fear? I don’t remember!
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: Yes
Had you gotten drunk or high yet?: Once I drank...
Had you driven yet? No
Had you had sex yet? Hell No!

5 YEARS AGO -->
How old were you?: 19
What Grade were you in?: None~ I was taking a break
Where did you go to school: no where
Where did you work?: I was a nanny, than data entry for an insurance company
Where did you live?: with Kevin in Lake Hopatcong (our studio apartment)
Where did you hang out?: with Kevin & our friends at our apartment
What was your hair style?: I think it was shoulder length still
Did you wear braces?: No
Did you wear glasses?: Contacts
Who was your best friend?: Kevin
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?: Kevin
Who was your celebrity crush?: I don't know!
Who was your regular-person crush?: Kevin
How many piercings did you have? 9 all in my ears (3 on the bottom of each, 2 in the cartlidge of my left, & my right tragus)
How many tattoos did you have? still none
What was your favorite band?: Pink Floyd
What was your biggest fear? ever getting back into school so I could finish
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?:No
Had you gotten drunk or high yet?: Yes & I'm not ashamed!
Had you driven yet? Yes
Had you had sex yet? Yes

LAST YEAR -->
How old were you?: 23
What Grade were you in?: College
Where did you go to school: Sussex County Community College than Kean Univeristy starting in September
Where did you work?: crappy cardiologists office
Where did you live? with my fiance than husband after June 17
Where did you hang out?: our house!
What was your hair style?: really short than I grew it out for the wedding
Did you wear braces?: No
Did you wear glasses?: Contacts
Who was your best friend?: Kevin
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?: fiance than husband~ Kevin
Who was your celebrity crush?: Matthew McConaughey (oh baby!)
Who was your regular-person crush?: Kevin
How many piercings did you have? same 9
How many tattoos did you have? still none
What was your favorite band?: Pink Floyd
What was your biggest fear? getting through my wedding
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: No
Had you gotten drunk or high yet?: Yes
Had you driven yet? Yes
Had you had sex yet? Yes~ duh!

THIS YEAR -->
How old are you?: 24
Where do you go to school: Kean University
Where do you work?: same crappy cardiology office
Where do you live? our home!
Where do you hang out?: Home
Do you wear braces?: No
Do you wear glasses?: contacts
Who is your best friend?: Kevin
Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend?: married to Kevin
Who is your celebrity crush?: Matthew McConaughey~ yes still
Who is your regular-person crush?: Kevin
How many piercings do you have? still 9
How many tattoos do you have? none but I will after I'm done with this baby!
NoneWhat is your favorite band?:Pink Floyd
What is your biggest fear? that my baby won't be perfect!~ & childbirth!

OK, prolly more info than anyone really wanted but I am so freaking bored today. I cannot wait to leave!

Co worker HELL!

Ok, hope you liked my joke~ just something to try & make the day a little brighter . My day started off ok but has had a turn fairly quickly (oh God, it's only 10:30 am & this is how my post is starting off.. can't be good...) .

I found out this morning on my way into work that my sister in law (whom some may remember my old blog posting SIL from HELL) who went to the hospital 2 nights ago *by ambulance* left because she didn't feel like sitting there (duh!) went back to the hospital and was admitted because she has appendicitis & is going for surgery this morning. I feel badly for her but I know she'll be fine; those surgeries are very common. So Kevin is at the hospital with his parents right now waiting to make sure things are ok.

Once at work, which is never such a great experience, I start telling the girls what happened to Mayra & that Kevin was at the hospital. One of my coworkers, Tammy, comes out & asks, "Oh, is Kevin not working today?" Hmmmm........ wait-

Before anyone goes & tries to give her the benefit of the doubt about maybe not knowing about Kevin's job situation let me give a little background information on Tammy.. She & I used to be friends. I met her at my last employer almost 5 years ago now. She was nice back than, a little wacky, but nice. When I left the previous company & came where I am now, the company was in bad shape (not because I left but b/c it was a bad company) & I helped Tammy get a job here. I thought I did a good thing. The pay was good, it was a nice place to work, and no further than the othe company. So she started March 2003 (I started August 2002) and at first it was all good. She started to have problems with her mother that year and she ended up with lung cancer & died just before that Christmas. At the same time she had problems with her nasty husband who hit her, treated her like a child, and basically controlled everything she did. She's one of those people who bad mouth to EVERYONE. She can't keep her mouth shut! She just tells everyone everything about anything & asks for advice but only wants to hear that she's right. So she told everyone that she & her husband were separating & he moved out. The entire time she talked badly about him & his family to every coworker in this company, some of which actually KNOW her in-laws. She also has a 5 year old son who is beyond hyper active (we went out to dinner once & never again! she let him run rampant around the restaurant) and has trouble in school. She has come into the office saying how much she shouldn't be a mother & that she can't stand him & he drives her crazy. Ok, so that's background on her character... now here's our relationship background..

Through all the crap & looking stupid at work I remained friends with her. We went to lunch together, she was there through the planning of my wedding. She even gave me my hair & makeup as a gift for the shower! I had her come over to my house for the hair and makeup trial. It was just my bridesmaids, mother, and me pretty much. We had some drinks and muchies and Tammy drank soo much! She was loud and obnoxious. It was really embarrassing. I was leary but I invited her as well as a few other coworkers to my shower which I thought would be ok. That was at my MIL's house last May. It was outside & my mom had made a yummy punch but also brought a bottle of vodka for everyone to spike their own drinks if they wanted. Well by the time I got there (it was supposed to be a surprise but I knew) Tammy had drank nearly the entire bottle of vodka and was WAY out of control. She started calling my little sister by the wrong name (she is Emily Nicole & Tammy called her Emily Elizabeth b/c it reminded her of the girl from Clifford the Big Red Dog). She kept remarking about my mom's lack of ass (no lie) and even looked down my dress since I wore a sun dress that cut a little lower than normal! My MOH & a BM, my cousin Leia & my friend Michelle, drove over together & were late because they got lost so she actually made nasty and rude remarks to them! It was so embarrassing. My coworkers were humiliated too because they also felt responsible even though they weren't. As if that wasn't enough, to top it all off... she saw the man that lives across the street from my MIL & FIL and said she was interested in him so my (stupid) MIL & SIL took her over there where she went in & disappeared for over an hour!! She stole the show at my shower & caused a huge scene. I was so angry. When she came back I just told her to leave because she had too much to drink and I would talk to her on Monday at work. I had about had it with her. Since than I have barely spoken to her. She was ridiculous. We've all told her (me & my coworkers) that she has alcohol issues and she needs to stop but she won't and so I've decided to not have that be part of my life. Most recently, when I found out I was pg back in November I didn't tell people right away because I wanted to make sure things were ok. I did tell one friend at work whom I know did NOT tell Tammy. Somehow Tammy either guessed or figured it out & started making comments all over the place that she dramed I was pg & that I am pg. I was so annoyed. I took her aside one day & told her to shut up because it's not her business if I am or I am not, but she had already told all of my coworkers so I kinda had to 'fess up~ at like 5 or 6 weeks- way earlier than I wanted to.

Needless to say when Kevin lost his job I did NOT share anything with Tammy. I do not talk to her anymore unless it's about trivial things or work related because frankly I can't stand her. I'm sure she heard through the grapevine about Kevin (I did share with others) and that was fine but she shouldn't have ever brought it up. Yet constantly when I mention his name or that I spoke to him in the middle of the day she'll ask, "Oh, is he not working today?" Like she doesn't know. Come on~ give me some credit! I know she knows but why does she have to keep bringing it up or poking me with it? Today's question was it. I think my hormones have cut my patients down to almost non-exsistant & I was about to scream at her for even asking that. And of course she asked in front of everyone. So I did the only thing I could do- I sent her an instant message & this is exactly what I sent: "look tammy, i know u know about kevin & his job situation. im not stupid. i dont appreciate that you keep questioning me about his job situation & his working in front of everyone. it's a bad situation & i'm not happy about it. i don't talk to you about things like that anymore for a reason.. i'd appreciate it if you would stop bringing it up. it depresses me that i'm due in 4 mos, have a new house, & kevin isn't working so plz stop talking about it." Her response? "Fine". I hope she listens because I really can't stand to deal with her anymore. She is pushing on that last nerve that is keeping me from killing her (or just looking for a new job & quitting this one). I just don't understand why people want to try & hurt someone else. It's not something happy. It's not something I talk about. Why even bring it up?

Ok, enough of that. It's too much to worry about right now. I've got other things to think about.. like it's FRIDAY! I have been waiting for the weekend. It has been a nice week though since I haven't had school, but I still just my weekends. This weekend ought to be pretty good too since my Mom, sister, & I are going to go look for furniture at IKEA! I can't wait. Kevin is going to his parent's house to do some stuff & I'm gonna get a (much needed) girls day out. Plus I LOVE Ikea! They have such great stuff & good prices. My mom's never been so it'll be an experience. I just had to promise Kevin that I wouldn't buy anything with out showing him first. I'm planning on bringing my camera & taking pics of stuff I like. It should be fun.

Tomorrow I also plan on finishing my bedroom. I'm going to do the sponge painting that needs to get done & I'd like Kevin to put new molding back up. It's finally starting to feel like our room in our home! It's really exciting. Things are coming along. I'll make sure to post pictures when I'm done.

Alright, I've spent the last hour typing this post. I feel a little better after venting. I better go. Lunch in 1/2 hour & I think I'm gonna go grab a sandwich at the deli. Sorry it was such a LOOONG post.

~Kristina

Just a Joke

Since it's Saint Patrick's Day and I really don't feel like doing work (which is different from any other day why??) I figured I'd pass along a silly joke that the girls at work passed around. It's a little "off color" (depending on your taste) so don't be offended!

My Private Part Died Today!

An old man, Mr. Goldstein, was living the last of his life in a nursing home.

One day he appeared to be very sad and depressed. Nurse Tracy asked if there was anything wrong.

"Yes Nurse Tracy," said Mr. Goldstein. "My private part died today, and I am very sad."

Knowing her patients were forgetful & sometimes a little crazy, she replied, "Oh, I'm so sorry, Mr. Goldstein. Please accept my condolences."

The following day, Mr. Goldstein was walking down the hall with his private part hanging out of his pajamas when he met Nurse Tracy.

"Mr. Goldstein," she said, "You shouldn't be walking down the hall like that.... Please put your private part back inside your pajamas."

"But Nurse Tracy," replied Mr. Goldstein, "I told you yesterday that my private part died."

"Yes you did tell me that, but why is it hanging out of your pajamas?"

You gotta love this!!!

"Well," he replied, "Today's the viewing!"

We made a decision..

We actually picked out the baby bedding that we are going to use for the baby's room! It's so exciting. It was awesome to know that it's a girl in there so I can pick her up some girly stuff . This is the bedding we ended up picking for good (no more teddy bears!):

I like this a lot~ espeically the little rug! I think I'm planning on painting the walls light lavender but I won't be doing the border since we are painting the ceiling like the sky. My mom & I were talking about hanging little butterflies from the ceiling too! I can't wait to start!

Kevin & I went out this weekend & started our registering at Babies R Us. That was a lot of fun! I didn't know WHAT to register for. We decided on this stuff:

Obviously that's just a few of the things.. we didn't really register for much. Only 16 things on our list. The lady at BRU was pushing us to register for more but I feel like why should I register for wipes & diapers when I know I'll get those anyway? Maybe my logic is weird but it just seems that usually that's the kinda stuff you DON'T have to register for.

My other big project this weekend was working on our bedroom. Kevin & I painted! It's like a whole new room. I love it! It's kinda periwinkle now. I love it. I'll post pictures once I finish it completely. Right now we got the base coat up but I'm still doing some sponging off technique this weekend coming up & we will be putting in new molding & painting the ceiling too. I can't wait to be done!

Alright, well I better go. I'm watching Medium & wanna relax a bit. This is my spring break & I don't really expect on hanging out each night like I did tonight~ I actually have homework to do (unfortunately!). Write later

~Kristina

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANKIE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANKIE

I am having a tough time realizing that my little brother, Frankie, is actually 15 years old today! When did this actually happen? I remember the day he was born & when I found out (I was in school & pulled out of my class & told by my teacher & the secretary) & what my 3rd grade class did for my mom. I remember holding him in the hospital & his red little face. I remember him growing up a little at a time & being the cutest baby boy I've ever seen- even to this day! He had the blondest hair & the biggest blue eyes. He was so sweet & always smiled. I remember the times he would cry & it made me want to cry because his sad face was soo sad! I remember how little he was when I moved out 6 years ago now- still so little! And now.... he's not even little anymore. He's about my height & a big kid, but I can't seem to understand when it actually happnened. Before I know it he's a man. He's still the nicest boy you'd ever meet- he is always concerned with how everyone feels & I can't visit with him with out getting 100 hugs & kisses & him telling me he loves me more times than I can even count! And yet, he's growing up!

As I sit & think about my baby brother (yes, he is still my baby brother even though he is not a baby anymore) I am actually crying! I love him very much & its days like this that I realize how much I've missed since I moved out. He's grown so much over the past 6 years~ it's like looking at another person even though we look SO much alike lol.

I know I'm hormonal, but this is ridiculous! LOL I actually have tears running down my cheeks! I am happy for him & sad at the same time that I'm missing his birthday for the sixth year in a row (I never get to see him on the day even though we talk on the phone each year... I miss being there!). Sometimes these hormones are a little hard to deal with . Please excuse my emotional ramblings tonight.

ANYWAY, back to some of my own baby talk. I'm still adjusting to the thoughts of my little girl in my tummy. Since I've been here typing this I've felt a couple little kicks here & there. It amazes me each time I feel something to know there's a real little person in there! It actually felt really nice today when a coworker that I don't see often came over to me & said, "Wow Kristina! You are really starting to POP!" & touched my belly. It's so real lately that each day feels new. Dawn (my coworker) was the first person to reach out & touch my belly. She & I are pretty friendly so that was ok.. had it been someone else I probably wouldn't have been as comfortable. It was just the fact that noticed & that really felt good!

Alright, I think I've stalled enough now. Back to the History of New Jersey (midterm tomorrow night already!). Wish me luck~ I think I'm going to need it!!


~Kristina

And the verdict is in...........

It's a GIRL!!! I am beyond ecstatic . She was head down & feet up but instead of facing out towards my front, she was looking at my back so it made it really hard to get pics of her face . They had me lay on my left side & than my right side for a while so hopefully the baby would roll over, but nope. They were shaking my belly a bit with the ultra sound wand to try & get her to move but all that accomplished was making her kick & punch lol. In the end it was ok though b/c we did get all of the necessary pictures to determine that everything looks healthy (the most important thing!). I had drank some oj before I went so when they were trying to take measurements she kept moving & it was hard to get her lol. Her little arms & legs were punching & kicking out all over the place~ it was crazy! The tech was having trouble getting all of the heart pics cause the baby was so active so the doctor came in and finished those & confirmed the sex. Her heartbeat was 122 & she is measuring at 11 oz and is right on for 20 weeks!! It was sooo exciting.
I don't think I've been able to stop smiling or thinking about it since I got home. It's unreal still. From day 1 I had thought it was going to be a girl (and in my old blog I referred to the baby as a she from the get go!) but than I had a few dreams that we were having a girl so I was starting to sway & wasn't positive anymore. It was still awesome. Kevin was really hoping for a boy, but he is excited too. We went straight to Babies R Us from there & I had to get the cutest little purple dress that I had seen when I was there looking at cribs. I also picked out a little dress that is pinky with strawberries on it. TOO CUTE! Kevin grabbed some bibs~ the first one read "Daddy's Little Girl" & I bought a little onesie that also said "Daddy's Little Girl". Can't wait to dress her up!! Now I'm dying to July to get here already!

On the way out of the hospital I called my mom & she picked up the phone all excited, "What is is?" No Hi, Hello, LOL- What is it??? When I told her she got all excited & laughed & said she knew it! She said she & my dad had called it last night after we left (we visted for a little bit yesterday afternoon & that's when I told them I decided to find out the gender). She was on her way to see my Dad so she told him (which is ok). I called him later & we talked & I could hear how excited he was. It is awesome!!! I followed that up with a call to my grandparents (who are out in Palm Springs, CA on their annual trip around the country in their RV) & they were really excited too. Once school finally let out I got to call my little brother & sister~ who were both dying to know. My little brother, Frankie, is 14 (actually 15 this Wed!!) has been asking me for months if I knew the gender yet lol. He thought it was a boy & my sister guessed right . Everyone is just thrilled & it is feeling so real now!!

It's pretty funny, but since the ultra sound this morning I've felt the baby ALL DAY. I've been studying (yeah... if studying is looking at girl nurseries lol) & I've never felt her kick & bump around in there more than today. It's like she's saying, "Hey! I know you know I'm in here- you were poking at me this morning so now I'm going to poke back!" LOL I know this is probably the silliest post I've ever written but I've never been so happy before! It's amazing for me to know that I've got my dear little daugher (OMG DAUGHTER) in my belly & she's doing well!! I can't wait to meet her!

Thanks for listening to my rambling & craziness today lol. I better get back to doing my homework.

~Kristina

Here are 2 of the 3 ultra sounds that I got today.. not the best because of how she was positioned.. They are profiles so I didn't label them like the last one..

Here's the stuff we got at Babies R Us... I know... I'm bad lol

And FINALLY... an outdated pic of me when I was 18 weeks I believe.. I'm a little bigger now (I am 20 weeks tomorrow!? 1/2 way there!?). Plz ignore the ugly curtins & stuff in the background lol- we haven't finished the kitchen yet lol

I CAN'T WAIT FOR MONDAY!

This may be the one time in my life that I absolutely CAN'T WAIT FOR MONDAY! This Monday I took a personal day & Kevin & I will be going for my BIG ULTRA SOUND! I can't wait . As I sit here & type this, Daddy-to-be is up in the nursery priming the walls & getting it ready for my mom & I to start working in there. He's really excited & I can't help but smile when I look at him all covered in spackle dust & primer lol. I can hear him blasting the radio & singing along. It's adorable.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about the baby & I don't think that I'm going to be able to wait to find out the gender! I really want to know who is kicking me lol. If I can make it through the ultra sound with out asking than I'm fine, but I'd really like to know... we could decide on a name and decorate the room to a boy or girl, rather than either or. AHH! It's so hard! I've always wanted a surprise but I don't think that I can really wait. Too much curiosity for me to wait another 4 months!

So here are a few of the names we've come up with so far:

Boy

• Jacob
• Adam
• Justin

Girl

• Lauren
• Alison
• Meredith
• Nicole

I know, we've kinda picked more of the girl names but boy names are no fun! Kevin would want a junior, but I can't do that to our baby.. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with a junior... if you don't have the same name as a FAMOUS ACTOR. Yeah, I am married to a "famous actor" or at least someone with the same name. The actor wasn't even famous when Kevin was born, it just happened that the actor changed his name to match Kevin's & now we can't go anywhere with out hearing it from people about our last name. When I first met him I thought he was lying to me LOL. I don't think it'd be fair to our son (if that's what we have) to have to deal with hearing that for the rest of his life! So I tried to compromise & say that we can have Kevin as the middle name but I don't know if that really works well with the boy names we picked. We'll have to see what happens..

Alright, I better get back to my studying.. History midterm in T-minus 5 days & counting... Have a nice weekend!!

~Kristina

What a busy week!

What a busy week! I can't believe I haven't posted anything~ it's been so hard trying to find a good balance between work & school that I haven't really had any free time. Tonight I decided that I would just sit & relax for a bit rather than read.. though I know I really should.. I just feel like I could use a break since I had class tonight & didn't even get home until around 8.

So my big news for this week is....... I FELT AN OFFICIAL KICK! No more squishy movements in there. Our baby is finally big enough to make his/her presence known! I think I have a little ninja or in there from what I've felt the last couple days lol. It's pretty weird & completley awesome. I was sitting at work & I was typing away doing work when all of the sudden I felt this... knocking or tapping, on the inside of my belly! I stopped & waited for second because it felt soo weird. It had been like two or three little bumps in a row. So I sat & sat, & a few minutes later I felt it again! It was distinct & it was MY BABY ! Since than I've felt it off and on. Yesterday it was in the afternoon and tonight when I was lying on the couch I felt it a few times. I can't wait until I feel it more & more & it gets even stronger.

Also, Kevin & I decided on the bedding/theme we are using in the baby's nursery. I actually had a few different choices & I let Kevin put in the deciding vote.

We had picked out a few different ideas from a bunch I had seen on different websites, but he liked this one the best. I figured since my Mom & I would be doing the actual painting & decorating that this woule be a nice way to really include Kevin in the nursery besides just spackle & priming like he's done so far. What I like about this is that it'll work for boy or girl (which we won't know what we are having since we are leaving it a surprise!) & I can do the nursey in yellows and greens that I can leave up until the baby is older. I was kinda thinking stripes on the bottom with solid yellow on the top. We'll see what finally happens, but now that I look at this picture even more, the lavender walls work pretty nice too. I'm just afraid they'll be a little too girly if we end up with a boy.. I just know I don't want the make the entire room teddy bears so that way I can change the bedding and it won't look so out of place. I might have to get that little rug though- how cute is that??

Well, it is past my bedtime unfortunately. TGIF tomorrow b/c I don't think I can handle too much more of this week. I'm really looking forward to this weekend though because I have a long weekend! I decided that Monday after my ultra sound I would take the rest of the day off as a personal day so I can study for my history midterm (which is Thursday) and spend some time with Kevin . I haven't taken a day off from work in over a month & a personal day might be just what I need to get my sanity back .

I'll try & get back on track with my postings.. BTW, Kevin & I talked about what gave me a nervous break down in my last post & have decided to DROP IT. We are not going to agree & so we've pretty much agreed to disagree. Right now I'm just glad that he hasn't brought it up & it hasn't been an argument since that day. Thanks for the couple positive words I've gotten. I've been a lurker on everyones' blogs, I just haven't been up much for commenting- sorry! Have a good night!

~Kristina