Majorly frustrated vent..

Why does it seem that nothing ever works out for us?? We finally get our house (after a few failed closings & all that other house drama) than Kevin loses his job. He finally gets into school & is looking for a job but we get a letter this weekend from our home owners insurance company saying they cancelled us back in NOVEMBER because they never received payment. What? So they wait until February to tell us this? I don't get it at all. So I got a fax from the mortgage company that we closed w/when we bought our house & it said coverage from 11/30/05 through 11/30/06. Now Kevin said he pulled out he mortgage papers & we never paid at closing for it so we need to shell out probably close to $1000 so we can be covered. Why are we paying upwards of $2500/month (and that is a low estimate... it's closer to $2800) in mortgage if our home owners insurance is not included in that??? It was MY understanding that this was all included in the closing fees & that we were covered. Now we have to find money that we really don't have to pay something that I thought was paid previously. I can't stand this stress. No lie... I'm actually so stressed I am feeling chest pains.. I can't handle this. So when I tried to discuss this with Kevin, I get the same thing I always get, "I told you if you'd let me start my own business I could make lots of money & we'd be fine." Why doesn't he understand that I will not let him take the little savings that we have to keep us afloat & toss them away to insurance for a business that I feel will probably flop anyway???? We've talked about it before & I told him when I've finished school & I am teaching & making enough money that he can do what he needs to do & can try it on his own. I thought that was a decent compromise, but keep in mind, he has no business experience, no formal schooling on how to run a business... I feel like he is not realistic about this! His "friend" asked him if he was doing it on the side & he said, "No, my wife won't let me." So his "friend" said that was too bad b/c he had a few people that wanted their bathrooms done. So? Does that mean that they'd hire Kevin? No... not in my mind. And those few people... is what he makes from that going to be enough to pay for the baby's college & our monthly mortgage?? Espeically when you consider that he'd need to get business insurance & everything else.. NO! So why can't he just stop doing this to me? I feel like he's blaming ME that we aren't making more b/c if he just started his own thing it'd be all better. It is not fair to put that extra pressure on me. Right now I really feel like I'm about to snap & putting anything extra on me is not fair!!

I'm sorry I just yelled about all that. I've been trying to keep my posts a little more positive. It's been about a month since he's lost his job and he keeps forgetting to get the paper on Sundays & I am working my ass off & going to school & falling behind.. It is too much & I really don't think I can handle it anymore.. I gotta stop before I start bawling at work..

~Kristina