HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANKIE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANKIE

I am having a tough time realizing that my little brother, Frankie, is actually 15 years old today! When did this actually happen? I remember the day he was born & when I found out (I was in school & pulled out of my class & told by my teacher & the secretary) & what my 3rd grade class did for my mom. I remember holding him in the hospital & his red little face. I remember him growing up a little at a time & being the cutest baby boy I've ever seen- even to this day! He had the blondest hair & the biggest blue eyes. He was so sweet & always smiled. I remember the times he would cry & it made me want to cry because his sad face was soo sad! I remember how little he was when I moved out 6 years ago now- still so little! And now.... he's not even little anymore. He's about my height & a big kid, but I can't seem to understand when it actually happnened. Before I know it he's a man. He's still the nicest boy you'd ever meet- he is always concerned with how everyone feels & I can't visit with him with out getting 100 hugs & kisses & him telling me he loves me more times than I can even count! And yet, he's growing up!

As I sit & think about my baby brother (yes, he is still my baby brother even though he is not a baby anymore) I am actually crying! I love him very much & its days like this that I realize how much I've missed since I moved out. He's grown so much over the past 6 years~ it's like looking at another person even though we look SO much alike lol.

I know I'm hormonal, but this is ridiculous! LOL I actually have tears running down my cheeks! I am happy for him & sad at the same time that I'm missing his birthday for the sixth year in a row (I never get to see him on the day even though we talk on the phone each year... I miss being there!). Sometimes these hormones are a little hard to deal with . Please excuse my emotional ramblings tonight.

ANYWAY, back to some of my own baby talk. I'm still adjusting to the thoughts of my little girl in my tummy. Since I've been here typing this I've felt a couple little kicks here & there. It amazes me each time I feel something to know there's a real little person in there! It actually felt really nice today when a coworker that I don't see often came over to me & said, "Wow Kristina! You are really starting to POP!" & touched my belly. It's so real lately that each day feels new. Dawn (my coworker) was the first person to reach out & touch my belly. She & I are pretty friendly so that was ok.. had it been someone else I probably wouldn't have been as comfortable. It was just the fact that noticed & that really felt good!

Alright, I think I've stalled enough now. Back to the History of New Jersey (midterm tomorrow night already!). Wish me luck~ I think I'm going to need it!!


~Kristina